Spur of the moment but I've decided to write a blog so that I can keep track of the progress with my mental health. In case someone else is reading this, let's give some background info to my story... After my relationship breakdown back in October 2019 to the person I was truly in love with and wanted to marry, I struggled massively to accept this loss and to move on graciously. Instead, I turned into a manic depressive who had suicidal thoughts and couldn't stop contacting her ex for reassurance/deluded into thinking if I kept contacting him he would suddenly take me back. Fast forward 3 months of constant crying and still struggling to accept it's over, I found myself tonight doing something incredibly stupid. My friend was staying over for a few days, we'll name her M, for moral support as I had decided that tonight would be the night I said goodbye to my past and give up on my ex. During the evening M was scrolling through tinder when she came across my ex...