So I had a moment of weakness today and messaged my ex... I'm really struggling to say goodbye. I absolutely hate feeling out of control but again, it's a life lesson that I have to accept you can't control everything. I don't think I'll be able to stop contact completely but I'm hoping if I keep the contact limited then slowly I can give up. This is my biggest test, moving on... On a more positive note, my Spanish is improving! Hopefully if I keep the lessons up then I can be fluent which was my news years revolution :)